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…. I’m Bored of mediocrity. victim of success and aspiration, tormented by the awareness of my background and lured by grandeur. Where is the line btwxt counting your blessings and comforting 1's self in the demise or ceiling of others? Where's the next exit on this seemingly slow lane? what an insatiable lover talent/perceived brilliance is, constantly reminding you of new levels to attain, before you can appreciate the views from the last

Cliché after cliché we spout in attempts to see meaning in a drought when in truth only the creator of the drought holds the transcript, the map, the design, the intended purpose. Yes marine and land life all suffer together, yet some are naturally geared to overcome the harshness; “season” than others. Be it through genes; genetics, physiological, physiological developments, sometimes from seasons past sometimes through shear will power and determination not suffer let alone die. Provision by parents, “favour”?….Such is life G….

On long drives in through my 9 to 5, nothing keeps me alive like speech radio, audio plays and articles. Yesterday I caught a panel of Scientists on BBC Radio 4. They spoke of design, initially as subject, then to discredit a creator. The scourge of Christians, almost worst than atheists some would say…As a defence they spoke of theories and a series of facts mostly pointing to the Darwin. Darwinianism, formative thoughts and guidelines to science that most of these nerds look to…

I was irritated; normally the brisk drive through the scenic coasts of random regions sooth my natural over-activity. The architecture and history spark retrospective mind-bubbles capturing my imagination as to how things were in old England. The iridescent smell of manure, naturally sculpted landscapes. Small villages. I was in Nottingham; Newark, New ollerton…Doncaster..the rurals…I saw a village called “ompton”..I thought…Surely twinned with “Compton” in the states but without the C..probably not.

And she…the short story came on. The main character and I paralled in some ways. She for him was described as everything he lacks as a person. I thought “wow”. That’s the same with me…she’s calm, thoughtful, listens first, is slow to anger, empathetic, naturally caring, puts others first, drives in a civilised manner, the list goes on…Thank God.

Darwinians, after my initial repulsion at their statements…I caught a smile, a coin dropped. Surely Darwin to them is like Christ to us…Are we one in the same? Darwin gives them purpose, guidelines, forms their thought processes, and gives them inspiration. He drives their ambitions, moulds their expectation of themselves, and sets the standards. His “teachings” nearly inseparable from their perspectives, overly impartial they cannot help but be, intrinsically linked to their existence, taught to them and embraced by them once they took up the “religion” of science…Lol…they are just like me..”us”…

All this and more, back and forth, in my head while I drive…..